I have no one I'm really talking to but myself, because I don't have any actually watchers/ followers except rl friends whom I've mostly told already.. but;;;

Don't call me lame... but imma try to get over my kpop addiction. (and video games but that's really not going so well right now and not pertaining to dA, really.)

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Yes, I know that I legitly include kpop in the definition of my personality and name...
but sincerely speaking I know it's only a parasitic relationship.
Despite all my sincerest wishes,
Kpop will not get me good grades
hence, kpop will not get me into college or get a good job
kpop will not help me have a better attitude towards my parents...
kpop will not help me have a better relationship with the awesome God that made & loves me [atheists don't get offended, this is directed toward myself and not you]
kpop will not help me with pretty much anything I need to focus on in life.

So you know how if you write something down or tell a lot of people it helps you accomplish your goal? Well that's what I'm doing. I know that I'm not doing so well giving up my kpop addiction, so I'm trying to help myself by doing this....
What I reap now I will sow for eternity...
Kpop is definitely the main subject I draw however, so in giving up that addiction, I give up maybe 65% of the things I draw... Soooo I'll be drawing more deep topics hopefully... I've been thinking I really want to draw landscapes (which I've never done before so 加油~！) faces ofc because I love faces so much ♥_♥; , and also some angels found in the Bible are described so ridiculously intense they're really asking to be drawn by anyone who reads them.
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But~ this doesn't mean that I am going to stop listening to kpop (I don't think). I've said this several times to several people, but I don't think that it is "addiction" or poisonous to listen to any type of music from an aesthetic point of view... I really do enjoy the korean singers' style, with the lively beat but singable songs, and the ballads ohgod the ballads with the amazing vibrato... The first thing I judge in my mental checklist about a singer is their vibrato. If they don't-- that's fine, but they better make up for it lol. ANYWAYS... American people like Linkin Park I know I definitely have to stop that from reaching my ears (I used to love them and also I used to be a self-loathing little girl... CONNECTIONPLZ?) Music really really effects you. It connects to you more than you'd expect, I've come to realize... at an emotional level and feelings... along with the subliminal messaging. Luckily for me I'm not a fan of English music all that much, so to all that drugs and sex and partying I can accurately say NOEPNOEPNOEP[:.

AND TUMBLR REALLY PUTS SALT IN THE WOUND AND THE CHERRY ON THE GUILT CAKE YOU GUYS. IT'S... IT'S... IT'S LIKE...
   O SO I HERD U LIEK KPOP.... the venom is already flowing in your veins definitely going to kill you in maybe a couple days when you have that report due and you watch mvs instead.... hmmm how about we just STABSTABBYSTABSTABSTABBYSTAB oh why are you down on the floor writhing? mmm... at least you'll die now instead of later )) ♥ actually you squirming in the floor is kinda funny I'm going to make a gif out of this and then slightly desaturate it fufufufu~ #1DOWN #RESTOFKPOPFANDOMTOGO ~

If I was going to write something else I forgot. yeayy. \o/ FEELLINGS WOOOO


TL;DR U GUISE MKKK??/? TANKUU~~`
i put in da sparklies so yu guise hve 2 lisen kkkkk?